I’m going to start waking up early from tomorrow
Oh I have to make that phone call to a friend; nevermind I’ll do it on the weekend!
I’ll make my favorite dish on the next festival!
I’ll start those music classes from next month
I’ll start exercising and eating right from next week
It’s about time I start giving some fucks about myself
You know what, I am going to start living my life on my own terms from now on!
And the sun shined tomorrow just like it did on every other day
But that tomorrow never came
I never made that phone call, never woke up early and heck, I never took those classes!
The only thing I did was die; die each day, slowly
Because while fulfilling my “duties” I forgot I had a tiny little heart beating inside of me
I forgot to live
Suddenly one day I woke up and I realised that too many years passed me by
I gave love; abundant love around but I forgot to love myself
I forgot to nurture my soul
But I still don’t regret not doing all of those things for myself ;
For I was given the most precious gifts, my kids. They were my whole world
Bestowed with children who never let me down in any way,
Now who’s going to tell them how I loved them more and more with every passing day?
Who will they come home to? Who will caress them to sleep when the worldly problems devour them!?
I wish I could somehow say the right words, any words to sooth them
Because that is the only melody they wish to listen to right now
And how it aches my heart to let them down, to not be able to ease their pain and wipe their tears
How I wish I could’ve said and done a hundred other things for them
But I’ll never get that chance again;
For I can feel that judgement day is upon me
“Remember, I will love you till the end of time
One moment I’m here,
And the next I’ll be gone,
Know this, you sweet children of mine
You’ll find me there by your side; be it hail rain or sunshine” ❤ 👼