Set free again

Just when I felt ready to fight my demons
In walked you, to turnaround my season

A beacon of hope, with a laugh so contagious
I couldn’t help but feel courageous

Courage to feel again, to dream again
Allowing myself to get out of the mundane

Clueless to what your old school charm was doing to me
Slowly, I felt myself being set free

Free to love again, to dream again
Healing from all the pain

Wonder if you caught even a glimpse of it in my eyes
Or were really just oblivious, letting the time fly

Whatever it may be,
Just want to say thank you for setting me free

Free to feel again, to dream again

Only know you love them when you let them go

Letting go, the best thing one can do for themselves

But why is it so hard ?

Maybe because we are often used to the comfort of having the known in our lives

Or maybe because when we have to let go of someone we love, we also lose a part of ourselves in the process. The part that will cherish them forever 

They say time is the best healer. 

But is it, truly? 
Unless we make a conscious choice to let go, heal and free ourselves of the shackles of the remnant of our emotions, no amount of time can save us!

Now knowing when to let go is one of the hardest things we will ever do in our lives. But again, knowing when to let go is just the first step.

To find the courage to really let go of someone you love, is what makes a world of difference. Wish there was a crash course for this just like we have it for a zillion other things, lol ! 

As I write this today, having overcome the hurdles of letting go and embracing what life has for me in this season of my life, I sometimes find myself reminiscing those memories shoved deep in the recesses of my heart. And while my heart still aches at times, thinking about what could’ve been, I rest assured knowing that whatever happens, is for the best. 

I forgive myself and free me of the burden of shame and regret laden on my heart, holding no resentment. They will aways have a piece of my heart, the one that I finally let go. Having peace knowing that what’s not meant to be will always stray further away the harder I try to hold on. And what’s meant to be, will find its way to me no matter how far I run away.

So I await with arms wide open to embrace what life has for me🤍

PS: Writing after what feels like a gazillion years! I know I’ve come back on wrote a post or two and went MIA again. Genuinely hope this time I’m back for good. Thank you my readers for still sticking around my blog. I appreciate you 🤍

PPS: Title credits: Let her go ( by Passenger)

Who knew it would become such a long good-bye

The memory of our last visit kept playing flashbacks before my eyes

As my hands kept yearning to feel the warmth of your touch again

Who knew it would become such a long good-bye

Kept rebuilding that memory each time

Wishing if only I had hugged you a little longer, knowing not when I’d get to do it again

But who knew all was going to change in just a few weeks’ time

Weeks and months passed us by,

Each phone call began ending with a sigh

Who knew it would become such a long good-bye

With only a phone screen between us, we started noticing the faint lines on each other’s face

Putting on our best smiles, this phase too, we embraced

Date nights got replaced by Netflix nights and virtual gaming

And just like that; arrived the season of raining

They say that distance makes your heart grow fonder

But thoughts of loneliness kept letting my mind go wander

As I lay in bed trying to stop my heart’s cry

Wondering why did it have to become such a long good-bye

As I kept holding onto the hope of seeing see you again

Life was starting to get more and more mundane

The sound of your laughter helped to lessen the pain

The brightness of your light kept my darkness at bay

Just for one chance of seeing you again, I prayed

Who knew our last visit would become such a long good-bye..

Looks like I came into some good luck

When one day I ran into you, leaving me totally awestruck

Beaming with joy underneath our poker face

We saw our eyes dance with humble grace

Wish I could come running to you

And we didn’t have to so quickly bid adieu

Wishing we didn’t have to just stop and stare

When we all we wanted to do was hug tight like a bear

Wanting to never let you go and hold you for just a little longer

But…I know we had to be stronger

As I walked back away from you,

Feeling completely anew

I could feel my heart elate with joy

But also almost doubting if my mind just made a clever ploy

Was it real or was I day dreaming

Now I could see my mind’s scheming

Taking me back to the memory of our last meeting..

And again I saw your face flash before my eyes

Wondering why did it become such a long good-bye..

PS: Feels good to be back after a long time 💙

All that we are and aren’t…💜

We are like two sides of the same coin, always together yet can’t embrace each other

We are like the sun and moon, one needs the other’s light to shine bright but forever apart

We are like tom and jerry, can’t live without each other, but can’t not fight either

Yet we are also like two peas in the same pod;

Perfectly complementing each others’ imperfections

Some days we are like Ross & Rachel, other times like Monica and Chandler and sometimes like Harry & Hermoine

We are not just two people in love, we are two people who have found a home in each other

They say find someone you can live with, but we found someone we can’t live without.

We are so close yet so far apart

We are so close yet so far apart.

I get to listen to you talk. Talk about your dreams, your fears, your passions. And that gleam in your eyes when you talk about it, it makes me dream your dream too. I want to listen to all the songs of your heart, the ones you speak but mostly the ones you don’t.

We’re so close yet so far apart.

Sometimes I keep thinking what it’ll be like to actually be next to each other. Will the thumping in our hearts give away the excitement or rather the fear we secretly feel in our hearts?

We are so close yet so far apart.

Sometimes all I want to do is stroke my hands on that beautiful face of yours. Hold your hand and walk back home and kiss you like no one’s watching, until we run out of breath! Because lying in your arms, listening to your heart beating, feels like the safest place in the whole world.

But all I can do is give you a pat on your back. Give you a meek hug and steal glances to look into those black eyes; for fear of the world watching us.

I want to do all this and so much more. But for now I continue to do all of these things and wait. Because love is patient. And it is understanding. But most of all, love is powerful and yet it is also compassionate.

Holding hands

Holding hands – probably the most underrated expression of love.
Isn’t it amazing, how by merely entwining your fingers with that one person makes you feel so much stronger, so much loved. It exudes so much warmth and gives our heart such a reassurance that this person, standing right beside you is here for you no matter what.

Do you remember the first time when you held hands with the love of your life? After the initial tension, suddenly you find those fingers smoothly slipping in yours as if it was the only hand ever made to hold yours. How all your fears are cast aside by just their warm and affectionate touch? How suddenly you just know that all’s going to be right in your world?

It’s so pure. So innocent. It speaks I love you like a thousand words except those words are not spoken but only just felt. And oh so wonderfully.

Only time will tell… Part 4 💞💟

So just when she thought she had hit rock bottom

Somewhere within a new flower of hope blossomed

She decided to simply live each moment and give all her love

For she realised that she couldn’t unlove

And the only way forward was to let destiny tell its story

So she stopped feeling sor

For; to give love was her choice

Whether she received it or not, was not her voice

And love she got, oh boy

Sure not the way she hoped but love it was, what joy

They lived some of the most magical moments only to be later looked back at with regret.For neither of them knew which way they were headed

Like him, she was unsure too, scared even

But one day, it all became very clear, like some sort of epiphany

He was scared to hope, his fears far outweighed any desire to fly

And they both kept asking why

Why did their paths collide if it weren’t meant to be

It were so much more easier if they’d just stopped by the sea

But now they had set sail and come too far

Yet he was ready to jump off just to save her a lifetime of scar

But boy was she fierce…

He couldn’t let her go, she was one to fight

Her faith didn’t waiver a slight

She had her weak moments, sure

But their love, she knew was pure

So how could she give up, she had to see it through for both of them. And so they prayed, for only HE could set it all right and bring them home, to each other.

And one day, their prayers were answered.

Her belief won,

his worries quashed;

and their love conquered.

He said those three long awaited words

In that moment, she felt like she could fly; be one with the birds

His voice was like music

Symphony just for her ears

Their partnership had just started

The road ahead was definitely not for the fainthearted

So as they sailed into unchartered waters

They had their share of stormy tidewaters

But together they made history

With chimes ringing of their victory

As she walked down the aisle, he was waiting at the altar

Feeling grateful that she didn’t let her faith falter

Because when he looked at her in that white dress, he knew that it was all worth it. That they were both going to be home. And this time, this home had a heartbeat

So fate took its own sweet time to unravel their story. But all in HIS good time ✨

And time finally told 💘❤️

To read the other parts and related poems, follow the links below:

Was it the start of something new?.. Only time could tell

Only time will tell.. Part 2

The story continues

When love wasn’t enough

Only time will tell.. Part 3

Only time will tell…( Part 3) 💕💔

They knew they would always find a shoulder to cry on and a riot of laughter in each other

They knew they were treading on thin ice

And neither of them liked where they were headed

He had made up his mind, bound by his worldly shackles

And she, she was trying to hold on to the tiny thread of love with all that she had got

She was getting tired of the emotions making a fool of her

But she couldn’t bring herself to walk away

It wasn’t easy for him either, but he chose reality versus their dreams

Or at least that’s what they thought, because it indeed was the right thing

But her candle of hope was still burning strong, which is why it was so hard to let go

But times were getting rough, she wanted more, the lines were getting blurred and it was getting difficult to protect their friendship that they both swore would never fall apart in the wake of this flame of love burning in their hearts

It looked like he was ready to walk away, to save both of them the heart ache

But was that the truth? Would they both in fact walk away from something they knew had the potential to g Junive them an eternity of happiness? Were they ready to walk away or even ready to take the fall? Their lifetime of happiness was just a leap of faith away

Will they make it?

Only time could tell

It’s all about perspective

All that hurt, all that pain; it burnt a hole in her chest. Tired of the internal war raging between her heart and mind, she almost gave up. Just when all hell was set to break loose, she found her grip again. She realised she was stronger than this.

That everey moment every experience was preparing her to be the greatest version of who she really was. And that this milestone she had to accomplish. She was so close. After all her patience. She was finally there. How could she give her peace away so easily? So she stood her ground. Fully knowing and finally accepting her situation.

Acceptance, she learnt came not from excepting but from embracing. Embracing the reality of her experience and then because she didn’t like the outcome, she now knew she could choose how to experience the same outcome differently.

She chose to see the silver lining; which wasn’t so very sliver now. Because you’re unsure of the silver, of what’s behind the cloud. But this, she could clearly see it. The change. Through the change of her perception she could appreciate the change that was right in front of her. How could she then complaint?

Her heart still falters back to old feelings and reckless emotions, but she is learning. She is learning to pick herself up. Rise up from the ashes of her own tears.

Dilemma..🤔🙄

Dearly beloved are you listening?
I can’t remember a word that you were saying
Are we demented or am I disturbed?
The space that’s in between insane and insecure

Oh therapy, can you please fill the void?

Quoting one of my most favourite singers “Billie Joe Armstrong” from his very famous “Jesus of Suburbia” – I think to myself, “Mahn, how can a song written years ago resonate my feelings so accurately?” (although the context is entirely different!)

I can literally feel myself going paranoid over the most trivial things lately because a certain disturbing thought has made its home under my skin. In spite of so many reassurances that I’m really only being stupid and all’s well in the world, I can’t seem to shake it off! Maybe this will work then, well I certainly am counting on it.

You tell me all’s well, that I have nothing to fear

And yet my thoughts seem to dwell, no matter how hard I try to clear

I nag and become annoying and yet you never complain

Can you see that this is exactly the cause of my pain?

Maybe you do or maybe you don’t; maybe you don’t even comprehend

The thing is I need you to say something; my friend

Something, anything. Silence kills me

So you see the problem is probably me, yet I’ve made this about you

Now looking for an answer in this poem, when I really should be saying ” Screw you!”

– To you or to my mind, now that begs the real question! 🤔

Maybe I’ll get an answer or maybe I won’t.

But like I said I’m counting on it ( on you ;))

So who’s coming to my rescue here? I’m waiting for an answer 🙂